I finally made it back home to New Mexico. What a joyous occasion it was when I crossed over from the southern mountains of Utah and Colorado. I'll save the homecoming story for a little while. Let's begin with some deep reflecting right off the bat.
I spent Wednesday morning before the visitor's center was even open traveling through Arches National Park. It was a beautiful morning in the Moab canyon, and then to see the serenity of the morning in Arches, it was almost too amazing to describe.
Even the drive (which I captured on video) was riveting, far more than the congested Going-to-the-Sun Road of Glacier a few days earlier. Arches definitely ranks up there as one of my favorite parks.
Seeing the arches there were eye opening to say the least, but the time I spent there was just as reflective. With the morning sun coming up behind the cloud cover, I looked back at the thousands of miles I put behind me on this trip. It was certainly one for the record books, but the feelings that showed up then were strange. Feelings of wonder, not only about the places I've experienced, but just the fact that I'm in a transitional period of social classes. I could have never in my wildest dreams foreseen that I'd have the capacity to be able to take a few days off of work, go on a trip, and actually afford it. Growing up, it was about scraping by and having just enough to get by until the next paycheck. Who am I now? I don't recognize myself.
I have no idea how to be middle class. I have no examples to follow. No road map to success on this newly found journey of mine. It is scary to think I'm now on a trajectory that will take far beyond the confines of the old hometown mindset.
Through the cloudiness of the self-made "worry storm," though, there are two beacons of hope that I rely on more now than ever before. My parents. When you're young, you may just brush them off as always being a pain, or maybe they're not "hip" (even though both of mine were and are still hippies), but their roles change as you get older. I don't know how to ask them questions about certain things, however, I can ask them philosophical questions. You know, the ones that make you lose sleep at night. Life altering decisions. How to handle fallout from mistakes made, etc.
The few arches I was able to see (as I was not prepared to hike that morning) made me think of where I'll have to go in the future. On one side there is the firm foundation of my upbringing, education, and familial ties. On the other is the future, one of interesting and uncertain possibilities. In between is a delicate arch, that could easily shatter should even the littlest fissure begin.
I can only imagine what the next step in my life will be. What I do know is that I am so fortunate to have family, friends, and mentors to help me along. I've done some legwork, but without their guidance and support I may not have made it across the country all these times. To you, my hat is off. Until we meet again, know that Albuquerque has been nice these last two days. After enjoying a nice evening with the two NSE friends I made, I stayed the night and had egg, cheese, and chorizo burritos for breakfast. I also spent some time on UNM's campus just scoping out the place (No, I'm not looking for a doctoral program yet, haha).
Unfortunately, I will probably have to cut my vacation short. There were a few places I would have liked to go yet. The car was acting funny these last few days, so some serious thought might need to take place when I return to Iowa. I'm just putting this out here now so it's not a big surprise when it happens, but I may have made a mistake on buying this car (see paragraph about parents and their guidance). I hope it doesn't come down to it, but my summertime fling with the Sebring might come to an end.
Fortunately, I won't leave this one on a sour note like that. On the plus side, my return route takes me through Iowa's state capitol, where I'll be stopping at the Iowa State Fair! What I'll do there, I do not know, but one thing is for certain. I won't be having deep fried butter on a stick again. Tasty? Yes. Nutritious? Not a chance.
Catch you all down the trail!